"I Don't Know"s and Other Questions

My internship for my final unit finished 2 weeks ago. I have also recently completed my Cert 4 in Fitness. Not going to be overdramatic but sometimes, I do feel suicidal. I completed the "qualifications", what next? Get a job, get a car, get a house, build a family, then just hope and live till  90? But sometimes I do want to do something with my life. Build a fund management firm, build a gym, empower people to be the best versions of themselves, travel, have a cafe where I experiment with my long lost culinary skills. I have a lot of ideas for ventures and businesses but I just can't bring myself to actually doing it because I overthink and somehow limit the beliefs I have in myself.

Having done a specialist degree in Banking and Finance, it's odd that I am questioning myself now, why did I even do it in the first place. I still love the idea of strategizing money but is that all? Have I allowed my greed for money to surpass other goals? Why do I like stocks and dream of being on Wall Street so much? Yes its a cool feeling if someone recognize you on the street and want a picture because you are one of the brilliant female fund mangers, but is a "cool" feeling all there is?

I want to build a fund management company but I have no clue as to what my niche would be. Every company needs an X factor, what makes you different than other firms, why would investors come to you etc. I don't even know why I want a fund management firm. At some point, I wanted to be a financial planner and building portfolios according to the client's needs and wants, but does that mean anything anymore when people can just hop online and Google their life questions? There is also a daydream of mine where I want to be a stock trader on 5 screen monitors with reds and greens flashing, charting, being hyped. But the fact is that I just don't know.

In that split second there, an idea flashed.

My asset management firm will be different because I can give clients recommendations of equities and have an in-house analyst team to back that decision. We would have the facts and people would want to outsource their research to us!  I am going to give clients the professionally personalized experience they can't get on Google. Not that no one else have or is doing this but we would make ourselves more approachable like an old friend giving trustworthy advice. Why would investors choose us? We are the people's choice. We have in depth analysis and no bullshit advice as to what a client can and can't achieve. Now all I need execution.

Well. I feel much better now.

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